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ocd: weirdness
Years ago, I decided to treat myself and purchase a new sound system. I went to a store and with the guidance of a friend, I purchased a system. This was in the days when you still played records on a record player with a needle. I brought the system home and set it up. A few days later, I started to feel very anxious about it. I realized that it was set up not too far from a window. What if I opened the window and it rained and rain came in and showered the sound system? I couldn't get this thought out of my head. I started asking people, as calmly as possible, so they wouldn't know how anxious I was, about the possible damage rain might have on electrical devices. Well, this got worse for me and soon I was going home mid-day to check on the stereo to make sure it was not wet, even though I had moved it further away from the window and even though the window open so minimally that no rain could come into the room.
I started to buy record albums but that got weird too. I had to buy the "right" record, whatever that meant, and then I couldn't play them because the needle might damage them and if I did play them, I'd enjoy them while playing them then worry endlessly about whether I damaged them. This worrying started transferring to the sound system and I started having to contact the audio store where I bought the system to ask them questions about the quality of the product and whether certain things could damage them. I then started having to go to the audio store to talk with the people there. It was horrible and so embarrasing. All this time, I knew it was crazy but couldn't stop doing it, as embarassing as it was, because I was trying to diminish the anxiety I felt, to no avail.
Most people with OCD know at some level or at some point that what they are worrying about is not logical. Even for those events that could possibly make sense, the person may know that their thoughts and reactions are blown out of proportion but somehow they have to find a way to reduce the tormenting fears and obsessions and so they keep trying to act out compulsions that will possibly take care of that horrible, painful anxiety.
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