Sometimes, I have to ask myself what has happened in my life. How did I get here? I wonder whether I'm just making this up as a way to get attention or to get out of doing things. I wonder whether it's a matter of maturity, that somehow, if I became more mature and responsible,I wouldn't have these problems. Perhaps if I pulled myself together and stopped what might just be self-pity, I wouldn't have to take medications and be so careful and restrict my life. I could be like other people. But I don't know how to do it better. I'm doing the best that I can....